The Begining of Me

I have the thoughts of going back to the start of my life. To give you each a knowledge of who I am and where I come from and what makes me who I am.

I was born in September, When I first came out, my parents knew I would have CMV, it's a virus similar to a cold that everyone gets but when a pregnant woman get it's during her pregnancy it can have effects on the baby. I had a high probablity of being Deaf, Blind and having some brain injuries along with some other major problems. I was very sick with my liver as well, I ended up being allergic to protein so I was unable to digest any food. It stripped the lining of my intestines. They were able to test  and find out that I am all the way deaf in my right ear, and I have almost normal hearing in my left. ( I strongly beleive Jesus left that ear so I could hear music and worship him later in life). But I also wear glasses and have terrible sight but I am not blind by any means. I have some brain problems but nothing major, I tend to store things in the wrong place and when I go to retrevieve them I can't remember what I knew (example math problems I am terrible at). I also don't deal well in stressful situations. I tend to get overwhelmed easily and become very emotional and tend to overreact to different situations. When I was a kid I would lash out in anger and frusteration, Today as an adult I get emontional and cry alot easier instead of being angry. I grew up being the 2nd of 4 girls in a house that was devoted Mormons. My parents were married until I was 12. My parents did years of FosterCare and I had alot of siblings growing up. I was the hard child, I was the one who needed the most attention. I unforuntely was a target for bullies, abuse and other things because I was different then most. I fought those demons all my life. I finally was able to accept the past and deal with the reasons I was fighting for so long only recently, (that will follow when I get to that time period.) I never felt accepted until I met my soul mate at the age of 4. She is my best friend in the entire planet. We are still freinds 26 yrs later.  I know without a shadow of a doubt that Jesus gave her to me to help me through this thing we call life. Jessica and I lived acrossed the alley from each other. We knew and still do when the other one is hurting without even living near each other since we were 10.

I think I'll end there for tonight. Tomorrow we will continue from the age of 4. Thanks for reading.

Scripture for today.  Psalms 23:1-3
¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
³ he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.

Song For Today Phil Wickham's At Your Name.. I saw him in Concert at my church in Portland he was amazing. I was still new to Solid Rock at that time and I fell even more in love with that church seeing Phil there.